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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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syifa, 16nov93hyper_syifa93@hotmail.com Female,Sixteen. I love red, chocolates, donuts, piggyback rides, long bus rides, R1, the waves, the beach, novels, horror movies, hugs, smiles & laughters, my gerlfrens, my ncc, chalets, cute pictures, and i pretty much love my life(: You mess up my life,i’ll mess yours back. — Syifa♥Sufiyan 27/5/11 — Ryan Sheckler is my idol^^ Archives
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Monday, February 15, 2010
ITS JUST THE END.  Just a short post fr today. Basically today, cancelled the plan of going out with goodfrens and just stayed at home. So sorry guys, luckily you guys go ahead without me. Well,its just that im nt the mood to go out anytime soon. So stayed at home, watched endless programmes on tv. Flicking thru every single one of the channels and suddenly, lil bro wanted to watch cartoon on Okto. Spent time with lil bro watching Pooh and friends, ahah, i still find them so blardy cute to the maxxx. At least, it kinda cheered me up. Besides that, read one of the 3 novels i borrowed last week, till the end. Hehe, the book is so pretty cute laa. Sooo, another 2 more to go;) Tmr, might be meeting Elfiena again, off to somewhere. Hehehe, oh yes, yest was extremely funnnnnnnn, i like! Bt if Alynn could follow us yest, it'll be more merrier lorr): So,yeah, fetched Elfiena up at Yewtee at arnd 2pm and off to ECP. Reached there arnd 3 plus and since she was like damn hungry, we quickly made our way to Mac, bt halfway there, we were alrdy tired, so we just ate at this foodcourt or whatever its called. Hehe, we ate Satay and chicken rice, woooo niceeee. Then, went over to the skatepark and wooooo, damn nice sia they did all those stunts and all. After quite some time, he came with his sister and we talked about certain stuffs. I was really disheartened to hear what that had happened. Its just that i didnt expect things to turn out this way. Its alrdy bad and situation makes it all much more worse. You guys really condemned me. I still find it unbelievable and hard to trust any of you guys anymore. Hey, this is nt what i wanted. Yes, you guys said that you guys cared fr me, i do appreciate it. Alot, thx. Bt look, you guys turned it the opposite way and it clearly shows that each and every one of you really hate me so much and all those things that you've told me doesnt make sense to me now,not at all. I am nt angry and i dont hate you guys bcus in the first place, your intention were all very nice. I am now very disheartened and practically, im just sad to hear all these bullshit frm him, saying that i was the one who complained all those stupid things to all of you, bt the fact that, i did not even said that censored word, i swear i did not. Watever you guys wanna throw at me after this, go ahead. Well, i am damn tired to entertain any of these shit. Guys, if you think this is funny, hell, it is not, not at all. And if you think this is like a way to help me out,just like what you guys told me,damn, this is not the correct way,man. You guys have just make matters complicated and whats worse is that, i bet that he is definitely gonna hate me fr this. What wrng and what hell hav i done to each of you till i deserve this smack shit on me, huh? Once again, i am nt angry bt just disheartened at what you guys gave me now. Im sorry i signed out frm msn (w/o even saying bye or what), right after i said i was sorry. I cried when you said all those things at the end and when i cant bear it no more, i immediately offline. Well, i was just emotionally dealt with. And after that, it sets me thinking. I knw i really owe you an apology fr this bt it clearly shows that just the word sorry, is nt a big deal to you. Bt now, this is all i can do. While your sis talked to me, i looked at you and you seemed disappointed in me, i believed that your heart is currently in a worse state and yeah, i knw what you felt right at that moment. And if you noticed, i cant even bear to look at your eyes while we talked. Cus its damn hard after all that had happened. Well, simply said, i dont knw how to face you after this, it isnt easy,man. Yeah, you can call me a coward or whatsoever, bt honestly, its not that. Its the feeling you get after someone threw all these bullshit on you and its, well, basically hard laa to show up in frnt of the person(you) now. I believe the truth will come out one day. Yes basically, in the first place, im the one who started all this. Yeap,lesson to be learnt. It takes time to change, i'll prove it to you, you still believe in me dont you? Enough said, its just the end. |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you oughta stay |
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